Updates!

Dear Classic Mom Diary:

Wow, pregnancy has been such a journey so far. We are 20 weeks, so exactly half way, on Thursday. Two days from now! We are also getting increasingly closer to finding out the gender. We have taken the ultrasound, we're just waiting on the doctor to receive the results. I am really excited about that part. I was upset because my doctor said that they would tell me in the hospital, but a few friends warned me they most likely wouldn't. They didn't, as I suspected might happen, so naturally that put a little damper on things, although I didn't allow for it to upset me completely...we got to see our wee one dancing around and yawning, after all!

My dreams have been insane. From people trying to kill me, to people trying to steal my things, and Toby and I fighting, it has been a lot of violence. I can't seem to understand why, I always go to bed with pretty happy or neutral thoughts. I suppose it's one of those hormonal things. I wake up pretty consistently, every 1.5 - 2 hours, although some nights I wake up only twice throughout the entire night! It gets exhausting waking up out of my sleep so much, I'm used to a 10 hour a day, and while I knew I wouldn't be getting that again, I didn't expect to get such broken up sleep already. That's okay.

Baby seems to be doing well. I have felt them kick so many times now, it's lovely. I also have felt it through the skin a couple of times lightly, but T has yet to feel it. Soon enough, he will. He is so excited, although incredibly patient about it. I love him for that. He likes putting lotion on my bump and talking to it sometimes, which is so adorable. I love watching him get involved, one of my biggest worries was it would tear us apart because I would be so moody. That has not been the case. I have been moody some days, but most days I'm in a pretty decent mindset! I find it hard to stay down when I have a miracle in my tummy. 

I came off of one of my stomach pills completely (the nausea one) and cut my dose in half on my other one (stomach acid reducer) to help my appetite, which seemed to be dwindling a bit. It has worked so far, as I have been hungry a lot more often, which is great for putting on the extra weight. Being so underweight means I have to really keep an eye on my weight gaining, and hopefully put on a few extra pounds than expected to help make sure baby is getting everything O.K. Boy do I wish I had listened when people told me to get help with my eating problem when I was much younger, as dealing with it all but alone right now is terrible. My maternity doctor is a busy woman, and only really talks to me about maternity and direct pregnancy-related issues. I haven't seen my family doctor recently because with all of the visits for baby I really couldn't be bothered to sit in another office and wait, wait, wait... But I also didn't reduce anything without my doctors permission to do so if it became necessary at any point, for any reason. 

The heat has been sort of crappy. At night I wish I could sleep in the nude in an ice bucket. The temperatures seem to rise and fall all night long, I wake up dripping in sweat one time, and frozen stiff the next. Aye, aye, aye! Such a battle. I enjoy waking up to little kicks though, it's cute, and strange. Very strange. Getting used to that feeling is taking some time. My tummy isn't a fan of being kicked, so sometimes it makes me sick to my stomach, which is all but embarrassing to say. Sometimes, I feel like I ate my baby, the way they make my stomach so upset every now and again. It's really weird.

Anyway, that's my updates for now. As you may be able to tell from my change in pace, I am slowly sinking into the madness of the brain that is pre-motherhood.

Cheers

Julie