My handsome boyfriend Toby and I found out we were expecting on February 6th at a doctors appointment in Hope, B.C. It was an incredible, exciting, shocking, scary, and surreal moment in life - to know that inside my body there was another life growing, and that sitting next to me was the amazing man who made it all possible. I fought back tears through a huge smile, while watching over at Toby to see his huge, way-too-excited smile as he listened to the doctor. We left that day floating on a cloud, I'm pretty sure - me with a fist full of hand-outs from the pamphlet wall about caesarean sections and circumcision and D-Drops and anything else I could grab.
Our drive back home to Chilliwack was a blur beyond the excitement, both of us wondering how we got here, how amazing this was but still totally scary, questioning what we'd do and like many other new parents I'm sure - freaking the eff out.
Our drive back home to Chilliwack was a blur beyond the excitement, both of us wondering how we got here, how amazing this was but still totally scary, questioning what we'd do and like many other new parents I'm sure - freaking the eff out.
Let me back up a little - my appointment was supposed to be on January 27th, I was attending to discuss issues regarding my digestive disorder and my Fibromyalgia, as well as some other symptoms I was experiencing. While complaining about not wanting to go to the doctor that morning, I randomly got a phone call from the doctor's office explaining my doctor had to leave for an emergency and was rescheduling all of his appointments, so I got pushed back to February 6th - aka "The Most Amazing Day Of My Whole Freakin' Life". We kind of expected it - by January 27th I was already 5 days late for my period and was planning on asking for a test at the end to confirm. Missing the appointment that day ended up being horrible as I sat in agony for the next several days waiting to go. I could've gone to the store and bought a test, but I felt like if I did that I'd come home and find out I wasn't pregnant and was instead experiencing some other strange, horrible medical emergency.
So, February 6th rolls around and Toby drives me up to my appointment. Of course, he came in with me - like he always does (bless him, he's amazing) and was right there for all of it. I wouldn't have had it any other way, and was so blessed that the very moment that I got my positive - he got it at the same time. For me, sharing that moment with my boyfriend was one of the most exciting, intimate, amazing, most incredible experiences I've ever had. I wouldn't change a thing about the moment, not one.
After the appointment, when we got back into Chilliwack, finally with our positive in hand (er...uterus) we immediately went to a baby store and looked at the clothes. It just kind of helped the whole news sink in, and really added to the excitement of the whole day. We decided not to really tell anyone in the immediate moment, but we didn't exactly take our time in letting people know. By the end of the second week of us knowing, we'd been so excited we shared the news with everyone. Our idea was to share it on Valentines Day, but as it turned out I was so ill that entire week that I'd wanted absolutely nothing to do with technology and happiness. I just wanted to puke my heart out and sleep until the pain was gone. (Which it did go away after a week.)
It has been just a month since we've known now, but it feels like it's been forever! I am so excited, every day I feel my body working it's incredible magic to nurture, grow, and protect our sweet child and I just feel so blessed to be able to experience such a wonderful thing. I keep getting warned it will get awful, and while I'm sure the pain and experiences to come are going to be anything but pleasurable, I just can't help but remember that everything I'm experiencing is "normal" and the direct result of all the amazing things my body is doing, and it's all visible proof that it's doing a sound job. I feel so connected to my nature as a woman, sometimes. Other times, I feel so connected to my porcelain bucket, my body pillow, and my bag of chips or whatever I might be chowing down on at the moment.
Already this journey has been amazing, life - I mean. I look forward to this new chapter.
Cheers,
Julie Maye.
It has been just a month since we've known now, but it feels like it's been forever! I am so excited, every day I feel my body working it's incredible magic to nurture, grow, and protect our sweet child and I just feel so blessed to be able to experience such a wonderful thing. I keep getting warned it will get awful, and while I'm sure the pain and experiences to come are going to be anything but pleasurable, I just can't help but remember that everything I'm experiencing is "normal" and the direct result of all the amazing things my body is doing, and it's all visible proof that it's doing a sound job. I feel so connected to my nature as a woman, sometimes. Other times, I feel so connected to my porcelain bucket, my body pillow, and my bag of chips or whatever I might be chowing down on at the moment.
Already this journey has been amazing, life - I mean. I look forward to this new chapter.
Cheers,
Julie Maye.
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