Lately, my dreams have been really crazy, but I barely remember them in the morning. When I wake up in the middle of the night - it's insane. I remember them so clearly that sometimes I feel like I'm still in them, and I get all woozy and wobbly on my way to the bathroom. I've started leaving a light trail from my bedroom to the bathroom - it's pretty bright and forces you to wake up. Otherwise, I tend to fall asleep on the toilet for a while...zzz pregnancy has me so tired!! (Oh yeah, I nap during the day, too! New dreams here, too. Ugh!)
Sometimes they're really funny, like we're in our house but it's weird - like I'm seeing out of the fish eye view on a camera. The animals (my bunny: Buster, my cat: Onyx, our two bearded dragons: Nova and Gimli, and our rat: Bently) are all out and running about the house because their cages somehow vanished, and all of the doors and windows are open for them to get out, and for some reason I cannot close them. I am trying to hold everyone in my hands but their freaking out so I find somewhere like a closet and starting throwing them all in on different shelves. Generally none of them get away but I am in a constant state of panic keeping them safe. Sometimes, though, my cat gets away and I end up putting everyone in the car and going to find Onyx and bring her home, because I can't live without my little girl. It's really nerve wracking!
Other nights I dream that Toby and I are somewhere like a stadium and I can't find him, there are just a bunch of weird people around staring at me and acting strange. They look at me with these droopy eyes, almost zombie like but not dead or trying to attack me. Sometimes I see him but when I almost get there he walks away and I can't scream loud enough for him to hear me. I try to leave but the building is all locked and we're all stuck there and I find myself walking really slowly and when I try to run I move even slower. It's like everything is slow motion or reverse of what it should be.
Last night, for the first time, I had a dream I was smoking and drinking, despite being super pregnant (in the dream.) I could literally hear my stomach screaming at me for being a horrible person and doing horrible things to it. I felt so guilty but I kept doing all of those things. Now, I don't do that in real life of course, but it was strange! It felt so real and I felt so bad in the morning as though I'd actually done those things.
Pregnancy dreams are so strange!
Julie Maye
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